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Your whole life you must change to adopt the need of the society. What if, from now on we take a different direction? You are perfect absolutely perfect in all your imperfections. In your mental emotional, devotional and physical structure. With all your shortcomings with all your positivity with all your ill wills, everything and everything is perfect about you.

No need to change even an atom in your body. No need to become more or less, no need to do this or that. Just as you are you are the perfection of the reality in itself. A true image of god created in his own self-image with all the godly carefulness. Not a single cell not a single atom not a single breath of your breathing is without any perfection. With this state of mind, you realize god, god in its full glory. Celebrate this state of the Ubermensch the state of the prefect being with all his imperfect perfections.

You are absolutely perfect.

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Where does this fulfillment comes from, when is enough, enough? When is the bucket full, when does men stop fearing for more? When does the men loses interest in more and more, what is that he wants from all this and that? Nothing brings fulfillment to him, but when he loses one he misses the other.

Is there anything what can give men satisfaction to his need? He is addictive in all his habits! What can he acquire where he truly can say I have enough, it seems there is no bottom to this bucket, it just goes and flows into the deep mass.

Let’s assume for a second that he is in search for something, or maybe let’s assume that he is how he is, programmed evolved into a restless being dancing on the tunes of his genetic programming. Let’s assume that he has a goal for himself unknown to him.

I wonder what is that men want except a deep need for more and more and more.

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Oh my dear sadness, saddest of all sadness. You are the beauty the enlightenment the smell of roses. You are to me as is the night to the sun as is the love to the hate as is the ocean to the rain. You are my love you are my passion you are everything that is beautiful, joyful and good about me, you and only you is the purpose of all that I live for.

Truly the saddest thing in life is not to have experienced the deepest sadness in life.

Sadness is all I care about, all is sadness immense sadness. Sadness turns flowers into thorns turns butterfly into corps light into dark gray beauty into skin cancer. All is sad, sadness is the truth, it is the king worthy of praising.

On one side there is sadness on the other side there is sadness. Opposite of sadness is sadness, synonym of sadness is sadness. Day start with sadness and ends with sadness and surely life must seas to exist without sadness. Oh my sadness my beloved sadness my dazzling beauty in your eyes I see my unborn children.

“Why are you sad”, asked happiness to the sadness? “Why are you happy, what is there to be happy in life, all is sadness. Look deeply into the matter there is no reason to be happy, go to the dept. of the oceans and rise to the heights of the sky and then you will see the complete pictures which is not shadowed by the illusionary clouds. There you will understand and experience that all is sad and all is sadness in life.

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What did these 10 days of isolation do to me.
Day of arrival, I took a refuge in Silla(morality), Samadhi(mastery) and panja(Wisdom).

1st day I sat to practice morality(not to lie, not to kill, not to steal, not to intoxicate my self and not to have any sexual misconduct) to my surprise when ever I closed my eyes, my mind only dwelled toward sex, sex, sex and more sex.

2nd day I sat to practice morality, strangely yet another feeling had added namely of aggression now I was thinking of sex combined with aggression.

3rd day I sat to practice morality I had a strong urge to kill and destroy everything which even took breath in my direction.

4th day I sat to practice Samadhi to get mastery over my mind and I was thinking again only about sex. I was not experiencing any high state of consciousness but instead only experiencing pornographic images.

5th day I felt a tremendous sadness and a hollowness and a meaninglessness in all my activities. I cried the tears of no reason.

6th day I wanted to leave this prison and madness, I had packed my bag and was determined to fight my way out. But then I noticed an ant which was still struggling to pull one dry leave which it was trying to pull for previous 3 hour. This gave me motivation to continue.

7th day I was full of determination, full of hope but soon I felt depressed and frustrated again after sitting for 13 hours while feeling severe pain on all my body and still no feeling of ecstasy.

8th day I cannot really recall anymore. But I remember thinking about my tiger philosophy “The meaning of sadness”.

9th day something changed when I sat down, I sat for hours and hours, focused and alert, observing any changes in the physical body. The body was in much pain as I was observing this pain, I felt a separation from the pain like looking at you from the perspective of I. There was a stillness and a silence in which I heard the lights sings and I saw the sound dancing.

10th day I was in deep pain again not because of the physical pain, but of such short meeting with this feeling of ecstasy. A experience of sadness in which I experienced higher part of me but had to deal with this mundane “normal” truth again.

11th day everything was over again and I was happy that this madness stopped till I will start it again next time.

Everybody asked me what did you gain of it, I said I did not gain anything. I did lose something, that is my interest in all which is not!
Experiencing reality as it is not as I would like it to be!

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Give people value to their life, let them know you, let them like you and finally let them trust you. When they trust you they will follow you into the deepest of the forest. With this knowledge you can lead them to their higher potential or seduce them to a state of enslavement. You become there shepherd, remember that with great power comes great responsibility. When mastering this art, do not be concerned with their happiness or sadness, because these two entities are only distinguished by an illusion of time.

Become there master!

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I cried for many reasons today, one for the pain of growth, second for the long road which lies in front of me, third for the indifference behavior towards the outcome, fourth for the time which has passed, fifth For a glimpse of a higher experience, sixth for a uncontrollable desire to succeed and seventh for the humility beyond imagination.

The flow of tears!

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I am basically angry. Angry at everybody and everything. I am angry at my life, angry at family , angry at my work, angry at the society, angry at the teachers, angry at the religions, angry at politicians, angry at the world, for most of all I am angry at myself.

Just the pure anger, can you not see the beauty and strength of it? It burns like fires you have not seen or cannot be seen with naked eye. A beauty like the fires of hell, unparalleled with anything else! Fire and fire everywhere at once, just a pure source of energy, like a core of a volcano. It hurts and burns but fuels at the same time with this tremendous source of inexhaustible energy. This much anger cannot be accumulated in one life time, it seems like a burden of forgotten past, but which past?

I can tell you through this anger how a Hitler can be formed, or a Napoleon can raise to power or a Stalin can come to existence.

Releasing the pressure!

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Once I was just a small baby, then I become a young boy, just few years later I started to flower in a young man, now I am in the process of maturing, soon I will be called an old man and just few steps further life will seek to exists.

Can you understand this simple phenomena? How hard I try I cannot! Intellectually I can, but that is as far as the understanding goes. Like person dying of heart Disease and knows he need to stop smoking and lose weight!

This is not a pessimistic view on life but an authentic way of appreciating life’s full beauty.

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To Express oneself freely, what does it mean? To live a free life what does it mean? To be truly happy, what does it mean? To be yourself, what does it mean? To live a good life, what does it mean? To truly love, what does it mean?

To express one self, beyond the expectation of one self can be called a freely expression.

To live a free life is to be responsible without taking the ownership of the responsibilities.

Happiness is a raped word which now represent a consuming addiction. To be truly happy, is the process of experiencing not of expressing.

To be your self is to witness that which is being expressed. To know what is being expressed is to renounce the self-image, because where there is a self there is barrier to be true you.

To live a good live is, is to do what is the right action. That is to kill sometime and save other times, that is to build in need of construction and destroy in time of chaos. Remember the right action not the right deed.

True love is to love, without any reference all other is just another way of prostitution.